Tuesday, September 23, 2014


"There are very few monsters who warrant the fear we have of them."
~Andre Gide~

"Too many monsters; too little time," is one of my favorite sayings. I saw on a children's t-shirt long ago. Yet, the Andre Gide quote above provides the antidote.
     There ARE too many monsters and there ISN'T enough time to slay them all, especially if you are a victim of Organized Gang-Stalking, like me.                But, it's pointless to fear the monsters we can't kill; rather, we need learn to live with them.
     Maybe we should view our monsters as unwelcome housepests, as if they were our extremely annoying Great Aunts, Tilly and Milly, who came for the weekend and took up permanant residence in the guestroom: They are repetitive, sneaky, careless, a danger to us and others - they are MONSTERS...but they are dug in for the duration.
     Maybe, if we're lucky, we'll have the honor (synonymous with "pleasure") of burying them beneath the floorboards - IF they go first.
      But, monsters come in all shapes and sizes. They have many names and some require different kinds of weapons to vanquish them.
     I didn't seek out my monsters. They were left on my doorstep by my friendly neighborhood gang-stalkers. I may have placated one and procrastinated when it came to another. I admit I fed and even encouraged a few that wore the "Mask of Sanity" and didn't remove it until it was too late.
     Still, I own them. They're my monsters NOW, dang it! I even gave them names! They are:
》Broken-Water-Pipes,      Dig-Trench and Reinstall-Gasline (they're triplets,   closely related to Need-A-Plumber)
》Extract-Wisdom-Teeth (slain, November 2014)
》Vandalized-House (took a stab, but missed, October-November 2014)
》Winter (keeps making a come back, November-March)
     There are more monsters, to be sure; these are just my IMMEDIATE monsters. 
     Actually, if I could overcome "Not-Enough-Money", the last monster on the list, I could slay ALL the aforementioned others, with the possible exception of "Ex-Handler-Returns". This monster requires special care - and more courage than I have at the moment.
      However, I DO have a "GO FUND ME" page:  
http://www.gofundme.com/arep ac (this page is no longer available; it was recently removed from the web by my frienfly Facebook hackers).
     Maybe if you have one of those monster-slayers, "More-Than-Enough-Money" or "Money-To-Spare" on your side, you can help me deal with "Not-Enough-Money" - and I will get gone the rest - and hopefully NOT acquire more!

Thursday, September 18, 2014


"Every man must decide whether he will walk in the light of creative altruism or in the darkness of destructive selfishness."
~Martin Luther King, Jr.~

Altruism vs. Selfishness... now there's a dichotomous choice!
     We all teeter between the two or go from one extreme to the other, albeit some of us moreso than others.
     A Child of the 60's, I was the quintessential hippie, with a bell around my neck and flowers in my hair.
     Altruism was and IS second nature to most of us born in the early 1950s. That's why I spare and share what I have and do what I can for someone in want or need.
     Too bad I have a lot less than I used to and no longer trust anyone to do for, let alone to do for me, because this on-going hate crime, called Organized Gang-Stalking.
     But... "no man is an island", not even here in Billy the Kid country, where folks act like they don't need anything, then take what they need, PLUS, when you're not looking.
     I'm not too high and mighty or badass to say that I need help when I need it.
     I NEED it!
     The local perps finanally succeede dismantling every aspect of my life, because unfortunately for me (and whoever else they may seek out or encounter), gang-stalkers are not branded with the letter "X" or the numbers "666" across the forehead.
     Some honed their skills to become what they are and others are simply products of their environment; either way, they all run a pretty smooth confidence game, whereas
     I didn't...
     I'm not...
     I don't.
     I didn't go to school with them nor was I handed a rap sheet and a resumé when first we met. I am lucky to get a real first name out of some of these people, let alone a surname.
     I imagine, based on the slander that preceded my permanant relocation to this place, the police, et al, assumed I knew with whom I was dealing. They disregarded the fact that I am not from here and failed to notice that I don't hang out or scam people.
     Way back when, some cops and a few perps did give me fair warning that proved to be a harbinger of what did come, but I couldn't hear it, so didn't heed it.
     This was not recalcitrance on my part; rather, I was alone, greener than green, flanked, overwhelmed, confused and scared...
     I was a gang-stalking victim and didn't know it.
     Who to trust?
     What was happening to me was crazy and what I was told about what was happening sounded even crazier.
     I'm no longer green. But, I AM in dire straights. This means I'm not above falling prey to the perps again - this time out of desperation.
     I am a 61 year old, single woman who is without natural gas since September 2013 and without water since November 2013.
     Perhaps the utility companies, utility repair companies, supply and hardware stores, human services, churches, and so on down the line, are ALL perped.
     The Ruidoso Chapter of the extended Gang-Stalking Network seems to have a finger in every pie - and not a one among them seems to have an altruistic bone in their body.
     The perps DO care very much whether or not I live: I'm alive - and they don't like it one bit.
     Case in point: Last Saturday, I ran into a guy I met over a year ago through a mutual friend who is not a perp. He asked how I was doing and I told him of my plumbing problems.
     He came by my house that day to check things out, said he would repair the water and gas lines, and
would do the work on the coming Monday.  (Really. Hmmm...)
     Then, Monday changed to Friday morning.  (That's more like it.)
     Early in the week, he came by to take the parts he said were broken with him in order to purchase the correct new parts.
     Later in the week, he came by to loan me $40 because he is a "man of his word".
     Say WHAT?
     I didn't ASK him to loan me $40.
     Friday morning, he was a no-show.
     He hit on me every time he came by. I refused to sleep with him. He didn't show up because I wouldn't put out.
     When I texted him my opinion of his untoward behavior, he remained silent.      Finally, he called to say he was short of money and at home installing sprinklers to water the trees.
     Then, he sent me this text:
     "Hay just got out of the shower just relaxing cant get it that good"
     Passive-aggression RULES.
     He touted himself as being different from "all the other guys" I've
encountered who staked an altruistic claim that resolved in either the staunch refusal to help me, a decree that they only worked for pay and/or other numerous unfulfilled promises.
     I did INDEED pay one of these Stand-Up-Men-of-Their-Word.
      THAT one took the money and told me to "go fuck myself".
     I'd be better off taking a three-hour drive to Albuquerque, NM, to pick up a homeless man brandishing a sign bears the legend: "WILL WORK FOR SEX". A guy that's straight-up from the git-go perhaps would honor an agreement made and not pressure me for more.
     I've come to the conclusion that altruism is NOT an intrinsic part of human nature. It's an out-of-character impediment to the dark selfishness that blights the human condition.
     Consider: The Mescalero Apache say, "Tú béhé jindá 'i" ("Water is life").
     ALL living creatures on planet Earth need water to survive. What my gang-stalkers are telling me by taking away my water andy not allowing anyone to fix the pipes is "DIE."
     I am out-numbered by perps on the homefront an estimated 200 to 1. If someone is NOT a perp at first, I can rest, assured s/he will become one given a week or two. Hell...people around here can't sustain "nice" for more than 24 hours!
     I may as well leave the water lines broken. Winter is almost here.
     I'm cold NOW.
     My neighbor will no doubt zap my water pipes with his remote, hand-held EMF device at first frost and the pipes will come apart easily because whoever fixes them won't bother to solder them together.
     Anyway, it will be TOO cold to fix them once the temperature falls into the single digits and I'll be too exhausted from gathering the 20 cords of wood necessary to stay alive for yet another winter to care.
     So much for altruism on THEIR part.
     No matter.
     I DO NOT WANT HELP - or ANYTHING else - from ANYONE who has a black heart, a hidden agenda, a possessed soul and/or an ulterior motive.
     I will fend for myself, thank you very much - and hold fast my altruism - even if being creative with it continues to elude me.
     It sure beats the destructive darkness I've come across thus far - ALL DAY, EVERYDAY, ONLINE AND OFF - for the 7.10 years I've been a hate crime victim.

Friday, August 15, 2014


(Aesop's Fables by George Fyler Townsend)

WOLF, meeting with a LAMB astray from the fold, resolved not to lay violent hands on him, but to find some plea to justify to the Lamb the Wolf's right to eat him.
     He thus addressed him: "Lamb, last year you grossly insulted me."   
     "Indeed," said the lamb in a mournful tone of voice, "I was not then born."
     Then said the Wolf, "You feed in my pasture."
     "No, Wolf," replied the Lamb, "I have not yet tasted grass."
     Again said the Wolf, "You drink of my well."
     "No," exclaimed the Lamb, "I never yet drank water, for as yet my mother's milk is both food and drink to me."
     Upon which the Wolf seized him and ate him up, saying, "Well! I won't remain supperless, even though you refute every one of my imputations."

MORAL: The tyrant will always find a pretext for his tyranny.


The perpetrators of Organized Gang-Stalking rationalize and justify their hidden agenda by blaming the Targeted Individual (TI) for  commiting the crimes they are commiting against the victim.
     Community members who believe the perps act out against the victim based on hearsay devoid of truth: slander (the spoken word) or libel (the written word).
     The target may or may NOT be aware or IS aware but confused by the allegations because s/he is innocent of any wrong-doing.
     TIs who are on the outside looking in need make haste slowly in discerning who are the wolves in sheep's clothing and take a stand in favor of community or risk losing one of their own to the perps, whose only intention is to dismember the community by devouring TIs one by one.
     Virtual perps follow the same script read by our perps in real time and their tactics are the same as those used against us in our own targeting. Therefore, "....by their fruits, ye shall know them..."
     New arrivals to the TI Community and targets with a profile page offering an ambiguous photo along with a handle instead of a real name wave a red flag, but there may be a true TI with sound reason for privacy behind the faux front.
     We can be watchful and wary, but we cannot, without validation, reach a fair assessment due to a TI's Social Network profile persona alone; in fact, it is wrong to assume and/or accuse anyone of anything in a public forum without having valid, conclusive evidence to substantiate your claims.
     Any misgivings about a person, shared one on one in confidence must so remain until further notice, as to do otherwise is a betrayal to all concerned.
     Likewise, visceral emotions - bias, jealously, subjective thoughts and unfounded fears, residual anger, prior disagreements and/or simple distaste or dislike of a fellow TI have no place in the assessment of another's character.
     We are NOT PERPS. We are CRIME VICTIMS, and it's up to each one of us to behave accordingly, to have dignity and to treat each other with compassion, kindness, acceptence snd respect.

》Claim target status to infiltrate online TI Communities, share misinformation and gain individual and community confidence.
》Have more than one FB profile page to "tag team" or "mob" a victim, produce faux "TIs" to support their lies, bear witness in their favor or to see what TIs are saying, thinking and doing should the perp(s) be discovered, blocked or have their page removed for TOS violations.
》 Enumerate profile pages and websites you frequent in order to feed you false information from a trusted source.
》Add and remove the people on your Friend's List and the blocks you put in place.
》Hack the victims FB page, mobile phone and/or computer to alter words, delete evidence and freeze applications, mobile device and/or machine.
》 Have a sinister Presence that is palpable when they enter a chat room or lurk on a thread.
》Block the victim's ability to know what they are saying and doing.
》 Refuse to acknowlegde an incident for which they are in any way responsible; when presented with hardcore evidence, they continue to lie, deny, accuse, defame and blame the victim.
》Are charismatic, charming and very convincing actors in their role as victim.
A TI who is targeted by those who, heretofor, claimed to be his or her peers is likely to be confused, feel frustrated, get angry and lash out against members of the community re. their silence, the withdrawal of friendship, lack of support, expressions of doubt, betraying trust, siding with the  perps or citing the victim's negative behavior without explanation.
     TIs need remember how they felt when they were forsaken by friends and family members who you thought eould have known better than to believe the lies.

     Likewise, a TI should know a perp when s/he sees one as well as recognize one of their OWN.
hen it comes to cyberstalking and cyberharassment, if not for the grace of God, goes me or you or any one of us. 

Gang-stalk walk and gang-stalk talk has no place in a TI community that is the sole refuge for many of it's members who are easily triggered and traumatized, and whose lives are irrevocably damaged by the gang-stalkers on the homefront.
     We are ALL scapegoats in the wilderness.
     We ALL bear the burden of sin for our naysayers, non-believers and stalkers to No-Where that is a vacuum, lost in desolation wherein no can hear our silent screams of innocence, abandoned to a place where no justice can prevail.
     Total annihilation for all true targets is to outcast our own from No-Where until No One exists and we become No-th

ing at all.

Monday, June 16, 2014


"You're either part of the solution or you're part of the problem."
~Eldridge Cleaver~

What is the true purpose behind the deliberate, prolongated, torture of Organized-Stalking victims?
     This seems to be a burning question among Targeted Individuals (TIs) these days. 
     I say "burning" because Electronic Harassment (EH) and Directed Energy Weapons (DEWS) are the primary means of torture.     
     Unfortunately, the information gleaned online via social networks and anti-gang-stalking websites accounts for the bulk of the average TI's knowledge-base regarding "who" is stalking us, "why" and "how". 
     And, save what first-hand information comes one's way through another TI, ostensibly the information gleaned is HEARSAY.
     TIs who are "in-the-know" have much wisdom to share and many real time, up close and personal stalking stories to tell, but for the newbie TI, it's overwhelming to hear, difficult to comprehend, impossible to process and too-much-too-soon to accept what sounds like so much "crazy" talk.
     In fact, there IS NO rational explanation because one cannot rationalize irrational behavior.
     However, Organized-Stalking is both networked and scripted, so there must be a well thought-out plan in which targets play an integral part. This tells me that the
Dog & Pony Show - all the Street Theater, gaslighting, smoke-screening, finger-pointing, noise-making and sneaking around that takes place at the onset - is a blind. 

     The old adage, "Where there's smoke, there's fire", is not always the case for TIs. If there is smoke on the right, I tend to look for fire on the left - and I always eschew all coincidence from the situation at hand.
    Seasoned targets are aware that the Organized-Stalking movement has a "hidden" agenda; after all, we deal with the stalkers on a daily basis. 
     Still, we are not 100% sure what their ultimate game plan is - and when we attempt to tell others what is happening or what we think is happening, it makes no sense - sometimes not even to us. 
     The new-fangled modus operandi pertaining to gang-stalking - EH snd DEWS - lends to the fray; at least, it did so for me because I didn't understand the high-tech phraseology - and all the talk about the stalking being sanctioned by the US government really put me off and still does.
     I've been subject to Electronic Harassment (EH) via GPS, GSM, remote EMF, hidden surveillance MICs, mini-cameras, video and VOX recording, for the better part of the seven years, eight months I am targeted. But, the local tweakers are the ones doing this to me. I can't imagine the US government would have anything to do with these vile creatures short of putting them in jail, even if we do live in the United States of Texas on the Planet of the Apes.
     I was also thrown by all the "microwaved brain" aka Diected Energy Weapons (DEWS) talk, until I realized that any yoyo can put two microwave ovens together to crank up the radiation output,  aim them at your house and fire away.
     Seven years constitutes a mini lifecycle; I was hoping to be free of this mess at the seven-year mark. 
I'm not free of it. Neither have I been incarcerated or institutionalized. 
     But, I may be dead and just don't know it. 
     Local targets and 
non-targets alike don't seem to see or hear me. If they do, they are ignoring me.
     I guess they'd rather invalidate me than believe me or - God forbid - they just may have to do something to help me!
     I haven't fully investigated
Remote Neural Monitoring (RNM). This is yet another way targets say they are being stalked.

     So, as much as I'd like to address the issue regarding the true, underlying purpose of gang-stalking, first I must ask: What IS "gang-stalking" these days?
     Several years ago, gang-stalking was an organized crime-related, grassroots venture instigated by a hateful someone who, for revenge or sport, targeted an innocent person. 
     Local perpetrators (perps) aka cause-, group-, multiple-, gang- and/or community-stalkers then terrorized the target, using covert ops to destroy the person's life in increments over time, thus driving the victim to incarceration, insanity, suicide or death by hands-off murder, such as poisoning or freak "accident".
     Almost overnight, the entire face of Organized-Stalking changed. 
     Now it's become a global endeavor instigated by the Illuninati, Jews, the World Health Organization (WHO), President Obama, Homeland Security (DHS), The National Security Agency (NSA), the Federal Bureau of Investigation (FBI),the USA Department of Jusice (DOJ), and perhaps even the family dog, to establish the New World Order (NWO) via Chemtrails, Haarp, Directed Energy Weapons (DEWS), Electronic Harassment (EH), Bio API, microwaves, microchips and fiberoptics to acquire above-ground terra firma for Satan and it's minions, Vril,
Aloah Grays and evil people who are culling the world population by doing away with selected-at-birth, blood-contracted humans.

     That would be the Targeted Individuals. We are the Chosen Ones. 
     Aren't we special? 
     Victims of this hate crime have come out of hiding. There are TI support groups in different parts of the country. "ORGANIZED-STALKING INFORMERS (OSI)", "TARGETED INDIVIDUALS" and "ORGANIZED GANG-STALKING (Call Talk)", are just a few of the anti gang-stalking groups on facebook.com and the Internet. 
     Anti Gang-Stalking billboards have gone up along the California Highways.    
     Still, there is something about this newfound form of Organized-Stalking that, thanks to social networking, smacks of Street Theater in the form of Cyber Theater and the gaslighting of targets on a mass scale.
     What better way to compromise, frighten and/or brainwash confused, distraught, impressionable, exhausted and/or traumatized victims of this on-going hate crime than via social networking?
     Is it possible the perps want targets to look in the wrong direction in order to keep us from uniting, helping each other and ourselves, finding common ground and a solution that will end this radical injustice?
     If you are a target, please take a moment to ask yourself: Would your day be "with" or "without" stalking-related incident - or reminders of incidents past - if you obstained from accessing Organized-Stalking-related social networks, forums and/or websites?
     I don't read the newspaper, watch the news or vote. I avoid negative input that doesn't belong to me or about which I can do nothing to remedy or change for myself or someone else.
      Maybe all the aforementioned, alleged "lunatic fringe" topics are new news to some people. These topics may even be relevant, for when taken into account all at once, they do seem to form a Macrocosm of which Organized-Stalking is a microcosmic part.
     Maybe these more exotic concerns are blinds meant to keep us from seeing and resolving the actual, immediate problems that come as result of being targeted.
     Maybe we are far too focused upon ascertaining the true purpose behind why the stalkers are inflicting so much suffering on innocent people.
     I fail to see what good it does us to know the real hidden agenda if TIs continue to run in ten different directions.
     No one TI can handle the legal issue of Organized-Stalking alone.
     Thus far, the targets I've encountered locally are either perped to the max or just full of shit perps. There ARE some true targets online, but most seem to be Perps-in-TI-Clothing.
     TIs isolate to avoid being inundated by perps, though they are put upon daily. And, they are overly-cautious, if not downright afraid, to reach out to doctors, lawyers, local/state law enforcement, the FBI, therapists or anyone in a position to possibly help them due to having very ugly experiences with all of the above.
     I've had similar up front reactions from the same sources as described by my fellow targets, but I've also had help from those sources, albeit from behind the scenes. 
     There may be more folks like the TIs I've talked with by phone, but for the most part, the TIs online seem hell bent to beat their own drum regarding what's happening to us and why, and either don't seem to be interested in finding a common denominator upon which to approach the problems or have simply given up.
     I tend to think that wanting to know Organized-Stalking's hidden agenda is become a macabre fascination for many targets, myself included. 
     Speaking for myself, garnering and sharing information with other alleged TIs is Problem Avoidance, for in so doing, I'm alleviated of the responsibilty to accept my current fate and from making an attempt, however futile, to repair my vandalized home, salve my mortal emotional wounds and endure what remains of this lifetime that is desecrated by evil people via unholy ways and unsanctified means.
     I am beginning to believe that the perps actually did me an unwitting favor by forcing upon me the role of Pioneer Woman and a back-to-basics lifestyle. 
     Perhaps TIs need be free of enslavement by computers, televisions and other electromagnetic devices - to pull the plug, get off the grid, grow and breed our own groceries as much and as soon as circumstance, funding and time allows. 
     TIs may also want to consider paying off all debt and becoming Sovereign Citizens, an extreme measure that renders one free from government, statues and taxation as well as making one non-existant in the eyes of society and the world-at-large. 
     I already feel non-existent. Life IS passing me by. I'm not allowed to have friends or a mate, I can't participate in anything without it getting blown out of the water, I literally have NO WATER since November 2013, I'll most likely never have natural gas again and NO ONE will help me.
     I'm a scapegoat in the wilderness, marked and burdened by a multitude of sins not my own. No one can hear my silent screams... not even the OTHER scapegoats, save just a few. 
     A "solution revolution" is in order. The time is past nigh - and the sooner the better. 

Wednesday, May 28, 2014


"Oh, the games 
people play now,
Every night and 
every day now,
Never meaning 
what they say now,
Never saying 
what they mean..."
~Don Williams~

I don't believe there are more than a handful of real grassroots gang-stalking targets in this, the US of A. 
     I say this because I, speaking for myself, being a genuine, all-American, Targeted Individual (TI), don't have the time, money, energy or inclination to play head games with people. 
     If anything, I am too straight up. 
     But, the local targets I've encountered surely do seem to have just that.
     I am not insensitive; I don't want anyone to hurt like I've been hurt. 
     I thought others who are targeted would feel the same way.
     Instead, I'm finding that the opposite is true:
     Some TIs tend to lash out at other TIs like wounded beasts and kiss perp ass, whereas the perps seems to stay on an even keel and relentlessly spank target ass. 
     Go figure.
     Who needs it?
     I do NOT need or want my head bitten off by ANYONE, be they perp, perped target, pure target or non-participant...
     ....though I do hope all you TIs out there understand that a "pure" target is a rareity these days. Very few - if any - victims of this heinous hate crime can stake THAT claim; after all, day in and day out, we are surrounded by perps, known and unknown. 
     And, to be perfectly honest with y'all, the targets in my vicinity have done slim to Jackshit NADA to help me out. Any and ALL help I've received locally has come from total strangers or perps. 
     This doesn't say much for the targeted community, now, does it?
     Granted, TIs are:
     》Dealing with irrational and/or criminal behavior in others
     》Presenting with trust issues, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) and the like
     But, so are strangers, your perped neighbors-family-friends and some of the perps!
     When I attempt to interact with or help a local target, SO AM I AFRAID. 
     In FACT: I may have a better chance of escaping with my personal possessions and my heart-on-my-sleeve intact were I to have a heart-to-heart with WTF EVER is running this Dog & Pony Show than I do in my dealings with my fellow targets.
     As targets, we are ALL put upon. But, just because we are INNOCENT doesn't mean we are all sugar, spice and everything nice in every way and everything we say and do, nor does it give us carte blanche to lash out at another target because we deem them "safe".
     I'm a GOOD person. I don't initiate problems. I help the majority of those who ask for my help if and when I can. But, I'm not always "nice".
     Sometimes I'm downright ornery, especially when I feel disgusted with folks who need to be AWAKE and AWARE regarding what they are doing, to whom and why - only to find they are fast asleep. 
     HOLA, buena gente! TIEMPO DE levantarse Y BRILLO Y AROMA DEL CAFÈ!
     I don't hear anything, do you?
     Maybe they are being mind-controlled or their brains are microwaved to a cinder or they are simply having a bad hair day.
      All the more I can say is:
      If ignorance IS bliss, some TIs - and ALL perps - must be in Samadhi.

"....They just wile away the hours,
In their ivory towers
'Til they're covered up with flowers,
In the back of a black limousine."

"La da da, da 
da da, da da

La da da, da 
da da, da dee
I'm talking 'bout 
you and me
And the games 
people play."

"Oh, we make one another cry,

Break our heart when we say goodbye
Cross our hearts and we hope to die
Bet the other 
was to blame.
Neither one ever 
give an inch
So we gaze at our eight by ten
Thinking 'bout 
the things that 
might of been
And its a dirty rotten shame."

"People walking 
up to you,

Singing Glory Hallelujah!
And their tryin' 
to sock it to you,
In the name 
of the Lord.
They're gonna 
teach you how 
to meditate
Read your 
horoscope and 
cheat your fate
And to furthermore 
to hell with hate
Come on get 
on board."

"La da da, da 
da da, da da

La da da, da 
da da, da dee
I'm talking 'bout 
you and me
And the games 
people play."

"Well, look 
around and tell 
me what you see

What's a-happening 
to you and me
God grant me 
the serenity
To remember 
who I am.
'Cause you've given 
up your sanity
For your pride 
and your vanity
Turn your back 
on humanity
And you don't 
give a da da..."

"....La da da, da 
da da, da da
La da da, da 
da da, da dee
I'm talking 'bout 
you and me
And the games 
people play.
La da da, da 
da da, da da
La da da, da 
da da, da dee
I'm talking 'bout 
you and me
And the games 
people play..."

~Don Williams, 
"The Games 
People Play"~